Change is interesting...

First off let me say that my office is finally back in working condition. All the lights are on, classes are being held, and the smell has diminished. That said I have been mulling a lot of things in life over lately. Some of them I have made decisions about others not so much. Some of these things I have talked with you guys about others I have discussed with no one.

The more I think I have my life together the more it reminds me that I am not in control. The more I think that I know people the more I realize that I barely even know myself.

Life for me is in a constant state of flux. One day I would categorize myself one way and then next week I have a completely different view of the person in the mirror. I constantly wonder if this is the way my friends and family see me or if this is just my delusional self again.

I have also decided that I am not going to disclose so much about myself to people. Some people have continued to love me no matter the things they find out about me...for instance that I really like Scifi or that sometimes yes I do in fact have a complete conversation with myself...these are just some of the small things but you get the point, others not so much. In fact just recently a friend and I had a conversation about my views on the world and since that time we have not spoken to each other more than to say hello and goodbye during a class. But I guess if conversations are going to change the nature of a friendship I guess it was not really that meaningful of a friendship to begin with.

I think I have finally decided that I am in fact going to Grad school. I will either enroll in a Program here at UWF or commute to Mobile and enroll in the program at the University of South Alabama. I plan on finding a job in the field ASAP and working there while pursuing the masters degree. As long as I am in a college town and I can work on it why not do it. In my field it can only help me plus when I am ready to teach I am that much closer to my PHD.

I miss my family and old friends something awful. You guys could call me once in a while to check on me. I have tried to get in touch with a few of you and have not heard back.

It is amazing how much a person can change in one week! I know how different I am just from the weekend. If everyone else changes at the rate I do...WOW! No wonder the pharmaceutical business is so lucrative.